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I was in a really introspective mood today

Totally deep.

I’ve been thinking pretty hard about my childhood

And how I got to be the person I am today

Like those experiences that stay with you forever

That’s kind of like what I was thinking about.

Like this one time Danny and I were doing nitrous in the park behind this highschool

That we didn’t even go to. We were talking about this girl I thought

I might be possibly entertaining the idea of considering being attracted to, sometimes

Like after a drink or two.

And  told him that maybe it wasn’t really her that I was attracted to

But rather just me trying to escape the rigors of adolescence -

Like the crushing loneliness and feelings of inadequacy, the nervousness

Of always being horny,  or hungry

Or both

And the bad skin.

And he goes, ‘Maybe.’

© Shannon Peil, 2009

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